Letter To My Fans

Kells, to my fans

Hold me down mo'fucka

And that's all I say






When that crowd leave will you stay for me?

And if I don't become what they thought I was

In the time I should and my hype dies, would you wait for me?

Or be ashamed of me if I chose to bow out gracefully

Cause I know if I don't wanna lose myself

Then Hollywood ain't no place for me

What if I told you I ain't quit

And these drugs still was my rival

Would you regret the fact that you sobered up

And had more heart than your idol

Or accept the fact that I'm just human

Borderline suicidal

And is it blasphemous that these two fingers mean more to me than my bible?

Lord help cause I'm cause I'm hell bound

With the weight of the world I'm held down

Feels like I'm in hell now, maybe that's why I'm havin' this meltdown

Maybe that's why I hate fame, maybe that's why this J's lit

Cause I speak the real and get criticized

So I inhale and don't say shit

And I wake up, to the same shit

Cameras on with their hands out

And that fake smile that I hate now

Cause they the one say I sold out

They the one that will break out when I needed food for my daughter

And I'm the one who can't grow up so these fans replace my father

And these girls replace my momma, they give me love, I don't take it

Cause fuck love, these fucking hugs weren't around before I made it

And since I don't have no family EST is all that I got

Either drop me now or you down for life

Man it's EST or it's not






This shit ain't right (uh)

Cause whenever their wrong, oh it's my fault (my fault)

This is my life (my life)

Now tell me are you gon' ride 'till the wheels fall off?






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Till the nightmares done

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Till the grey hairs come

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Till the friendship disappears that we've had since day one

I said this is my life

So tell me are you gon' ride 'till the wheels fall off?






What if this is our climax?

What if everything peaks here?

What if we never get big and these days add on like leap year?

What if you were in my shoes?

Do you think you can fit 'em?

Or would put that gun to your fuckin' head

And regret the fact that you in 'em

Cause this ain't living, this shit prison

Whatever you see in videos, this isn't

Whatever I thought I knew, shit I didn't

Dealing with the consequences of my decisions

Traded the life of a lonely child

That couldn't find anyone to get through

For a life that's filled with cameras

Critisize everytime that I move

For the love I got for my fans

And the loyalty for my man's

Equaled out to the shows we dreamed of

With them bodies pack to those stands

And I did what they say I can't

So I'm living proof that you can

Go be great, chase your dream

We only got one life and one chance




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